My castles are falling...

Sat, 05 May 2007 14:09:43 GMT

I'm an idiot. I like Adam and he is moving very far away by the end of the month (TK, sound familiar? haha).
I guess we're kind of "dating".. but honestly I don't know what's going on. Every time we hang out he pays for everything for me even though I argue with him about it. He cuddled with me. We were at the movies last night and every now and then he'd lean over just to give me a kiss on the cheek. He's going to Brandy's wedding with me and I think he wants me to go to a wedding with him at the end of June. He's nothing like any of the other guys I ever go for, which is probably a good thing. And we went to high school together so I know he's not a dick.
He says things every now and then that make me think that he might want an actual relationship out of all of this.. but I'm not ready for one of those just yet.. and he's moving by the end of May. Why would someone want to start a relationship weeks before they're about to move? I'm confused.

Whatever happens.. I am happy for now (with almost everything in my life) and he came alone at the perfect time. Talk about unexpected..

he's younger, but he's smarter than most guys i know..

Wed, 19 Jul 2006 03:25:34 GMT

i've been freaking out for days.
things felt like they just kept getting worse..
he cancelled our plans twice in one day.
he said to me today that we'd only get to hang out once this week (which would total twice in two weeks)..
so i broke down and texted him with "...are you sure you even have time for a girlfriend?"
and it all went from there.

basically.. things are better. i'll still only get to hang out with him once until idontevenknowwhen.. but they're still better. he knows things bother me. we discussed what will happen when he goes back to school. we discussed what will happen when EYE go back to school (once i came online and talked to him).

during out text msgs, he said he liked me too much to let me go.
which is good, cause at the beginning i thought we were going to end up breaking up.

i'm feeling more optomistic. i'm feeling better.. or at least starting to.

relationships take work. but at least now i know i'm not the only one willing to put in the effort.

Mon, 10 Jul 2006 02:08:16 GMT

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